5 July 2017

Time is constantly moving on and we need to keep up. My life is finite and having given 14 years of it to Barbara, including a last year almost entirely as carer,  I cannot afford time for the younger generation. So it was today that I decided that Barbara's family are in the past.

There are still hangovers and duties to be performed.

Today, I left a message for Barbara's psychiatrist informing her of her death. She rang back and we had a ten minute conversation focusing on Barbara's life torment and the peace she would now be at. It was cathartic. More than that, she basically reiterated what June, my work colleague, had said about my support for Barbara. A sadness is that Lisa will probably continue her life oblivious of the extent of the love Barbara gave her, despite her own torments.

The RSO rang to say Barbara's death certificate was ready. I  simply directed the caller to Lisa.

Yesterday, Jan had rung and it was a difficult conversation. She asked if it would help to go over to their house, but I managed. Jan was Barbara's best remaining friend from Folkestone and I felt she ought to know the circumstances. She said she would contact Robert, so that he would know.

I also sent a text to Sharon as she wanted to keep in contact about the funeral. I had a heart-felt response.